I Got Plans

So... I'm going to be turning 35. I've never been big on birthdays. Never ever ever.  I've always envied people who had parties and dinners and such.  I always organized things for friends and family members.  And some where deep inside I always wished that someone would put something together for me.  I had a couple of get together-ish stuff before but it never really worked out.

But last year Crab and went and grabbed a bite to eat and then went back home and watched a movie.  I think I've mentioned that I've never seen a lot of movies that most people have seen.  Like today I saw Carlito's Way for the first time!  I loved it!  So watching movies is kind of a special thing for me.  He shows me all types of movies  So last year was Gladiator.  So that movie will always be special to me. "Are you not entertained?!?!?!?"

I'm so psyched for this year.  I told him to put a whole night of movies together.  I'm gonna bring steaks and my favorite drink and probably some of his favorite drink too. And we are going to drink and eat and watch movies. And in the morning we are going to eat fish and grits like we love to do in the morning and I'm going to... CUDDLE him.  I am.  I'm gonna lay my face on that big ol chest and fall asleep and drool on him.

OH I CAN'T WAIT  FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (doing the Birdman hand rub)

And you know what i love about it.It is tailored perfectly to me.  It is what I like.  It is what makes me happy.  And he knows that so he will do exactly what i want no questions asked,

I wonder if he knows just how much these little things mean to me. I wonder if when I tell him how it's my favorite thing in the world to do does he really know it really really is? I wonder if he knows how excited I get when I just drop by and I see him put in a movie.  At that very moment I feel wanted.  I know that he wants to spend at least 2 hours with me.  And when that movie ends and he puts another one in right after it makes me feel... I don't know how to describe it but I can tell you writing about it is making my eyes water.  Sometimes we watch like 4 movies in row.

Those are the times I'm most at peace.

Welp. Better put Mini in the bed.  Poor baby fell asleep while doing his homework.

Sleeper

Hey Y'all!

So last night Mini left to go with his dad for the weekend and I went to Crab's for a little bit of R&R.

First Porn...  I went through some of the movies that I haven't watched  yet.  I must have scanned through about 10 or 12.  Scanning... scanning... scanning...  I just could find anything I liked.  So Crab walks in the room and I say...

Where's the one with the monkey?

He laughed and then said "You are such a sicko"

And we laaaaaauuuuughed!

 Don't get me wrong though.  The monkey is not involved.  It's just in the room.  But there is like a red wine water torture part and guns in mouths.  Love Love Love it.  It's part of Nacho Vidal's Back 2 Evil series.  It's called Jealous Monkey.  My all time favorite scene is next with Belladonna on Angel Collectors. That's my favorite of all time.  Angel Collector. Yeah that's my fave.

Anyway so after watching a little porn for a while you know we did what we do ;) then we started watching some movie called Kingdom.

It was good but it was really late and I started falling asleep which Crab hates!

C:  I'm not putting the movie in if you're gonna fall asleep. (Mind you this is said before every movie)
M: I'm noooot.  Just put it in
C: No really because this is a good movie and it'll be pointless if you fall asleep.
M: I'm not gonna fall asleep

10 minutes later

C:  Are you sleeping?
M: No!  The dude just said that the other dude was about to call that chic and then they went to the store... I'm awake!

 5 minutes later

C: You're sleeping!  I'm looking at your eyes!
M: No i'm not.  Shut up!  I'm trying to follow this.

5 minutes later

C: You understand that part?  What she just did right there?
M (delirious) Yeah.... is this whole movie gonna be in subtitles?
C: What are you talking about? It's not even in subtitles.... smh....
M: (delirious) oh nothing... nothing....

So yes this is basically what happened last night.  This morning I woke up went home. and i'm waiting for a one Sir Crab to re wake up so we can re-watch the movie (which is what always happens)

Better Update (Thanks CeCe)

CeCe....  Thanks for giving me something to write about!  I guess I was out of practice!

Well, I remember one day I was at Crab's house and his phone rang.  He picked it up and
I guess the person on the other line asked what he was doing and he said 

"Nothing.  Just sitting here talking to my girlfriend"

BOOM!  There it was!  final confirmation.  

I think it came from him being confronted with me seeing Homeboy twice a week when Mini was taking boxing.  There was one day Homeboy got all bent out of shape when he saw Crab's picture on the background screen on my phone.  He was all "I want to punch him in the face."  Crab was all "I want to knock him out"  I was all "Neither one of you want to be with me so..."  I guess this was about the time Crab decided to make things official.  I remember it being a big deal that I tell homeboy that Crab and I were committed. I did.  Homeboy and I had a talk.  He said that he could never get past the point that he felt I was in love with Crab.  Valid point...  He still calls every now and then though.

On another note, I have been getting some financial things in order! YAAAAAY! The smallest so far has been paying off my car.  Finally!  Finally!  Finally!  Freedom from the car note.

Now.  This one is two fold.  I had 5 years of taxes to file.  But wait!  Wait! I know it sounds crazy! There was a method to my non-taxfiling madness!  I had student loan issues.  So I didn't file because any refund would just be going right back to the government.  So....  I was always trying to get out of default with that 9 month payment plan but I'll tell you, every time I was on like my 7th or 8th month disaster would hit and I'd fuck up! I'm actually pretty sure some type of disaster tried to hit this time.  But uh uh I was not letting ANYTHING get in my way this time.  I think this time, I ended up having to send Mini to NC for 3 weeks because I couldn't find childcare for the few weeks between the end of camp and the beginning of school, and then, on top of that I stopped getting child support.  But oh HELL NO!  I think I might have borrowed the money from my parents (which I HATE doing because I HATE asking for money).  But I was not gonna let it anything get in my way this time.  And I did it!

So when I got my congrats letter and confirmation from Sally Mae, I headed over to see Cat Daddy.  He's a CPA.  His clients are entertainers so I'm sure doing my taxes would be a cinch.  So he did my taxes.  All 5 years and I have a nice 5 digit return on the way!!!!!

My next project is a vacation.  I want to take Mini on vacation.  I think I have a fear of traveling.   But Mini wants to go to Universal Studios. So i'm taking him.  But I'm not going to tell him when.  I'm going to do the whole telling him on the way to the airport thing.  That should be fun.

Anyway.  There is a little bit of a better update for you guys!

Check in

So I'm not sure where I left off and I don't really feel like going to look so....

Crab and I are truly positively official. No if ands or buts.  He is mine and I am his and we are us.  It's interesting.  As we know this whole healthy type thing is completely foreign so it takes some getting used to.  He's definitely more involved in my life and has plenty more opinions than before.  And I guess that's all part of a relationship right?

I wish I had more to talk about!  I'm sooooo boring right now!