So... I'm going to be turning 35. I've never been big on birthdays. Never ever ever. I've always envied people who had parties and dinners and such. I always organized things for friends and family members. And some where deep inside I always wished that someone would put something together for me. I had a couple of get together-ish stuff before but it never really worked out.
But last year Crab and went and grabbed a bite to eat and then went back home and watched a movie. I think I've mentioned that I've never seen a lot of movies that most people have seen. Like today I saw Carlito's Way for the first time! I loved it! So watching movies is kind of a special thing for me. He shows me all types of movies So last year was Gladiator. So that movie will always be special to me. "Are you not entertained?!?!?!?"
I'm so psyched for this year. I told him to put a whole night of movies together. I'm gonna bring steaks and my favorite drink and probably some of his favorite drink too. And we are going to drink and eat and watch movies. And in the morning we are going to eat fish and grits like we love to do in the morning and I'm going to... CUDDLE him. I am. I'm gonna lay my face on that big ol chest and fall asleep and drool on him.
OH I CAN'T WAIT FOR MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (doing the Birdman hand rub)
And you know what i love about it.It is tailored perfectly to me. It is what I like. It is what makes me happy. And he knows that so he will do exactly what i want no questions asked,
I wonder if he knows just how much these little things mean to me. I wonder if when I tell him how it's my favorite thing in the world to do does he really know it really really is? I wonder if he knows how excited I get when I just drop by and I see him put in a movie. At that very moment I feel wanted. I know that he wants to spend at least 2 hours with me. And when that movie ends and he puts another one in right after it makes me feel... I don't know how to describe it but I can tell you writing about it is making my eyes water. Sometimes we watch like 4 movies in row.
Those are the times I'm most at peace.
Welp. Better put Mini in the bed. Poor baby fell asleep while doing his homework.