Hey...
I have to figure out how to get things back to normal.  I don't think I can though.  I think that's up to him.  I'm pretty sure I'm angry inside.

The situation with his daughter who stole from him.  EVERY PENNY he had.  She stole every red cent out of his bank account leaving him with nothing.  And then I ended up having to pay for everything.  Well...

She now lives in the house for free
He watches her kids for free ALL DAY
Drives a BMW 5 series
Works on Wall Street
Gets food Stamps
Buys tons of designer clothes
Shops at Whole Foods

This shit gets on my FUCKING NERVES.  So now when he says he needs something, bread, milk whatever I'm like "You have to ask Her for it"

My thing is she and her kids haven't suffered behind what she did but me and mine have.  So I'm done,  Let her do it.  I'm finished.  Normal things I want to do fine.  But as far as carrying the whole load on my back.  Nope I'm done.  Ask that bitch...

I really really despise her.

7 year itch

I think the 7 year itch thing is real! Hell, I had the 7 month itch when I was married!  I think I may not have been put on this earth to be connected to one person for the duration of my time. It's not like I want someone else is just that the thought of dealing with the same little annoyances FOREVER make me want to jump clear or of my skin and run screaming down the middle of the street.

 Little Things like....

Asking me several times what time I'm coming home when you know I have no idea.

Straightening the bed while I'm laying down relaxing.

Wiping the kitchen down while I'm cooking

Asking me what is wrong with my phone if I don't pick up the first time you call.  If I'm working and with clients you know I'm not picking up.

Making us embarrassingly late to every event ever!  Like every one.  Like not on time like eeeeeever!

It seems like to everyone else these are just things people live with.  To me it feels like

OH MY GOD I CAN'T DO THIS FOREVER!!!!!!!

I dont even want to LIVE WITH someone much less legally bind myself to anyone. Like.... I don't want to have to pay to break up with anyone.

Is it just me? Do any of you feel like this or is it more of my warped behavior?

Disclaimer: I have my period

Stereotypical

You know what sucks?

Stereotypes.

You know what sucks more?

When people keep living up to the stereotypes.

You know, you dont want to be that person that stereotypes people.  Like, in my business ethics is a big topic.  No discrimination and all.

But... of course there are definitely stereotypes that we discuss.  Me personally I stay FAR away from speaking or consigning because it's a dangerous thing to get in to.

Like
Those Wigglyworms are sneaky

Or
Green Goblins are always trying to get something for nothing!

But here's the super fucked up part. You do the right thing and dont stereostype people.  You take people at face value and then they go and do the thing you were trying not to pin on them and you get burned.

The other day I was on the phone with an agent I'm doing a deal with.  Now I am one of those black girls that grew up with the "you sound white" BS. If you're like me then you know it can get you into some precarious situations on the phone when you speak to someone that you've never met before. Shes all...

These people are shady!  I swear they're always trying to get the upper hand on people! No seriously.  I knew one who was americanized and had a white husband and all so I thought things would be fine.  But no! As soon as we were in a deal she started with the sneaky shit.

AWKWARD (especially the white husband part)

But so far I'm 3 for 3 with the stereotype.  It sucks because I dont want to be prejudiced but I also dont want to lose control of my transactions by not preparing for the BS.

Hmmm...

Quickie

Amazingly the conversation came up. The other day he looked at me and said "I feel like I've given up."  I told him the whole cave scenario and he agreed.  Now lets see what happens.  I told him I'm not as good as pushing him like he is to me.  The difference is I'll take the push.  He won't. He will make excuses.  FOR EVERYTHING.  I explained that to him.  I told him he's a fucking nag.  I am not.  And I won't ever be.  So when I push he's got to move.  I'm not going to badger him because it's not in me.

On another note, he's becoming more naggy.  Sometimes it's embarrassing because I'll be around other people at work and he's all

"When are you leaving work?  I called you, how come you didn't pick up?  What time are you leaving?  What do you have to do?"

It's a little embarrassing.