Yes Yes Day 9 is coming... Another picture... Geesh! Killing me
Anyway. I've decided I gotta get 100% right with what I'm doing. First of all, I've been very gray area like with Homeboy. I play games to keep things open if... that's not right.
So I'm gonna keep it 100% with him and really say...
"OK cool. Listen we are gonna stop playing this game. You play games with me, I play games with you, but now games over. At least on my end. I'm finished and not because you frustrate me, it's because I have a relationship with Crab which I think you could probably tell."
This is something that Crab had a problem with. The reasons I would give Homeboy for not being with him. He knew I would tell Homeboy that i he (Homeboy) just doesn't do right by me. But what he wanted was for me to tell Homeboy that I couldn't be with him because I 'm with Crab. But, I was like "Whatever. I said something and that's enough."
But I realize now it's not enough. Because without the truth we keep slipping in and out of "talking". So at this point I am doing what most of us women hate about men. I play both sides of the fence. So my new reason for not dealing with other people is because I'm in a relationship. Which is something I need to tell other dude too. (This dude from highschool that has been trying to get at me) Mostly I just avoid him and tell him I'm busy because he's definitely my type so I don't want to get into any sticky situations because AS WE KNOW I tend to get myself into sticky situations.
One thing I can say is that Crab LOVES ME! He loves me all Jill Scott Especially Different like. And I FEEL it. And I'm gonna let him!