Can't a Brother Get Some Catfish?!?!?

I'm so ready for the weekend.

I'm exhausted!
EX
HAUS
TED

I'll have tonight until 9AM tomorrow to relax and then I have to pick Mini up.  Crab says he's not going out so I think I'll get us some movies and some catfish and greens and candied yams and Grey Goose Cherry Noir.

And I'm gonna crawl up under Crab's arm and fall asleep and drool all over him.  YUP!  That is how it's going down

Now the catfish...
Lemme tell you bout the catfish.

Yesterday I told him (Crab) that I was gonna get him some catfish and mac and cheese and Candied yams cause that's my baby's favorite.  So there's this new spot in my area SoCo Cafe.  I've gotten food there several times.  It's good.  The food is good! But here lies the problem with a lot of black business that I personally come across.  And I think you all might know where i'm going with this.

Now it's a weeknight.  I gotta get Mini to boxing, pick up the food, pick Mini back up from boxing, take the food to Crab, Bring Mini home, feed him, have him do homework and take a bath.  Now it's about quarter to 7, I'm leaving Mini at the gym and I call to order.  I know they always fry fish to order (doesn't everyone?) so it was best to call in

SC: Hello
M: Yes I'd like to place an order
SC: Can you hold please?
M: sure

10 minutes later I'm still on hold as I pull up and park in front of the restaurant.  I walk in. Wait.  the girl finally comes over and says "Are you ready to order?" I hold up my phone to the girl and say.  "Yeah I called to place my order 10 minutes ago and you put me on hold and I'm still holding."  She gives me a confused look, walks over to the phone hangs it up and comes back and says "Are you ready to order?

YOOOOOOOOOOOOO!  No surprised look.  No, Oh I'm sorry.  Just walked over to the phone and hung it up.  So I begin to order. as she begins to right the order

M: Ummm Catfish
SC: Ok... What sides...
M:Candied Yams
SC: There are no more.

Now I have my blue tooth in so I press call and of course Crab is the last person I speak with so it calls right away.  And he answers right away.  Whole process took about 9.4 seconds.  So I say "They don't have candied yams what do you want? okay"

M:  Alright so I'll have Greens

Whoa... Homegirl just walks off and starts taking someone else's order.  a couple of MINUTES later she comes back over

SC: Are you ready to order?

M: Uhhh yeah...

so I order my food,

SC:  And Your name?  Okay Diana.  You can have a seat and we'll call you when your order is ready

THIRTY MINUTES LATER....

I go to the counter

M: I'm gonna have to leave and come back b/c I have to get my son.

SC:  Okay it will be ready soon.  They're mixing up the batter now to fry your fish.

WORD?!?!?  They're just mixing the batter right now? WORD?!?!?

I shoot over to the gym.  Get Mini (who's pissed by the way that I wasn't right there when he finished). Get back there, run inside.  WAIT ANOTHER 15 MINUTES.  Get my food. Go to Crab's.

We set the food down start unpacking the bag.  I put mine to the left.  Pick his up out the bag and

WAIT A MINUTE.  NOW WAIT JUST A G D MINUTE!

WHY THE EFF IS THIS CONTAINER SO LIGHT?

I open it up

And...

inside

is

One

Fried

Chicken

Leg

On a napkin.

NO FISH

NO GREENS

NO MAC & CHEESE

Just

One

Fried

Chicken Leg.

After all that TERRIBLE SERVICE

I din't even get what I paid for.  I didn't even get a whole dinner.  You know... like wrong order.

Nope.

I got

One

Fried

Chicken Leg

I called.  They sounded apologetic and said to come back tonight for my order.  But really.  The service sucks.  I'm big on service, because if you make me feel good when I come in i will come back.  and I gotta say, even if it's just okay.  I'll still come back cause I like you!

And let me tell you they act like they are doing YOU a favor.  I hate that!

Someone else complained about how long it was taking and the response is

SC: you all need to understand we are up front.  We're not cooking the food

Someone asked "So you haven't started taking credit/debit cards have you?"

SC: No and we never will.  We're trying to keep the cost down for you.  But y'all don't understand that.

Someone ask (b/c it was about to close and the just brought out a new pan of mac and cheese) What do you all do with food left at the end of the night?

SC: The crew takes it home if they want it (LONG PAUSE) then the rest gets donated to soup kitchens (LIE!  You could tell she was lying about the donation part.  She realized that is what dude was getting at.  I knew that's what dude was getting at when he asked.)

A lot of black businesses that I patronize ESPECIALLY food establishments act arrogant and annoyed when you come to give them business.  In my opinion good service and a positive attitude go a loooooong way!

I'm just saying

Hey yall

Hi.

Those on twitter know I'm still alive.  I haven't posted in a while because I just don't feel like it lately.

Today I feel lonely.  Maybe because its raining.  Maybe because my weekend was very single motherish.  I taught my son how to ride his bike then later he got stood up by his dad and layed on my lap and cried.  It makes me sad to always do things alone.  But it isn't different than when I was with my husband. I still had to do it alone. But I really would like a partner in all of this.  Its bittersweet to see my son with Homeboy.  I know I gave him up for Crab but I still like to see him interact with Mini.  There is such an easy feel to their interaction.  I want that for him so badly.  A man in my life that isn't turned off by my son and his energy but encourages him to use the energy up.  Homeboy seems to know how to handle it.  He's nurturing and caring with his son but seems to know how to teach him masculinity at the same time. I want someone to do that for my son. It's so cute when Mini is finished boxing he runs over to Homeboy to give him five before we leave.  It makes my heart ache a little.

And with me he always tells me how beautiful I look. Sometimes while I'm in the middle of talking about something completely different he'll interupt and say "you look great" or "you're so beautiful".  And its usually when I look my worst.  He tells me he's proud of me.  He makes me feel good about myself.  I want that for me too.

Oh well.  Maybe one day I'll learn to do what's best for me.  Until then I'll have lonely days.

And another thing

And Homeboy called me a couple of hours ago.

His issue with me is he can't find anything wrong with me.  He can't find a flaw and it scares him. What if we were to get serious and then he finds out something that would make him not want to be with me and then he's stuck.

I told him I have plenty of flaws and if they were deal breakers then he could break the deal. But don't even worry about it...

No point...

I'm done...

So that's why you keep me on the back burner?  Because I'm too perfect?

Whatever man.

I said.... clarification!

Oh... and y'all can't clarify my question?  I asked my best friend and her answer sounded so warped and like THE worst advice EVER.

I never ask my friends for advice and that's why.  Those bitches give BAD advice.  ALWAYS.  I'll be listening going

Mmmmm.. okay.... okay... interesting...that's a unique interpretation.... okay.... yeah... yeah... okay well thanks...

And even though I didn't know what to do when they asked I am thankful I knew what NOT to do!

Ms P, I flat out told her once, You give HORRIBLE TERRIBLE ADVICE!  HORRIBLE.

But I need some clarification.  You know I'm trying this new incorporating emotions into physical thing but I don't think i'm really doing it yet.

Work Rant Encouraged by Freckles

I HATE MY JOB
I HATE PEOPLE WHO JUST KEEP SAYING YES.

YES WE CAN DO THAT

I'M DROWNING

I HANDLE REAL ESTATE FOR A HUGE COMPANY.  EVERY STORE IN NORTH CAROLINA, SOUTH CAROLINA, GEORGIA, ALABAMA AND TENNESSEE.

EVERY SINGLE GOT DAMN STORE

AND WE OWN OTHER COMPANIES SO I HANDLE THOSE STORES TOO.  THANK GOODNESS THE GOVERNMENT SHUT THEM DOWN ON PURCHASING ANOTHER COMPANY A FEW MONTHS AGO. I WOULD HAVE RUN SCREAMING FROM THE BUILDING

I'M DROWNING!

SOMETIMES I SIT AT MY DESK AND MY HEAD IS SPINNING. LITERALLY SPINNING.  LIKE WHEN YOU ARE TOO DRUNK.  WHERE TO START? WHAT TO DO NEXT?  HOW MANY MORE HOURS LEFT IN THE DAY?

AND THEY KEEP SAYING YES

Thanks Freckles.  That felt nice.

Question time - clarification needed

He's like oxygen to me. It's crazy. I just want him him him all the time!

Anyway... I've been way too tired to blog.  But I've started my I.V. treatments again today so hopefully I'll have more energy soon.

I've been spending all of my free time at Crab's.  We eat and sleep and watch movies.  And have sex.  Yup. SEX! And its goooood. And it's got love mixed in it.

Question for you guys...
When you have sex with someone you love and you let yourself feel love while you are having sex is that making love or is making love just the real lovey dovey mushy kissy slow sex?  Can making love be regular sex with feelings of love?  Let me know cause I don't want to ask him and I don't know.