Sigh okay... where shall we start today...
Crab because there isn't much. We had a halfway deep convo where I was telling him that I don't try and manipulate him. He swears I do. For my newer folks.... I'm manipulative. Point blank. No need to elaborate at the moment. So I was telling him how I consider my feelings and our relationship and how I deal with him to be very pure and untainted. I told him I have no hopes dreams expectations for us. If we progress great. But I enjoy us and don't constantly hope for more from him. But I do want more sometimes but I'm not always trying to get to a place with him. I enjoy us most of the time. So I have no need to try and manipulate him.
Homeboy called tonight. We sat on the phone for maybe an hour and a half. I was like..
M: Omg let me ask you something. I have a friend but for the sake of the question let's just say its me ok...?
M: so what if we were doing it (yeah he says doing it so...) and I wanted you to slap me?
H: Where? Like in the face?
H. I'd be like what is wrong with you?
M: So you wouldn't do it?
H: NO! It's you isn't it? Oh my god its you!
M: No this girl I know!
H:i this girl asked me to choke her once!
M: uh yeah! You've never heard of that?
H: I have but I would never do that. I'm a freak and all I mean I like freaky stuff but that's crazy
M: she likes her dude to spit in her mouth too.
H: WHAT? THAT'S DISGUSTING! I mean I'll share a drink with you and all but I'm not letting someone spit in my mouth.
M: Not spit in your mouth you spit in hers.
H: no that's disgusting. Why would someone do that?
M: Different people like different things I guess.
I was cracking up!
I would really have to get him comfortable and get him to experiment.
Homeboy and I are going to go see the tree at Rockerfeller Center. At least that's what we planned on. Let's see how that plays out. I told him I wanted to see the Macy's windows too. I haven't gone to see the Macy's windows since I was a teenager. So I wonder if its really going to happen. I gotta do my hair or something...