OKAY. So I get these ideas in my head that I'm being punished for things. Or taught lessons. So today I have gone through the following emotions before deciding I was being punished by Crab.
Crab hasn't answered his phone. He must have decided to sleep late.
OMG. I hope he's ok. He said he was feeling like he was coming down with a cold last night when I went by. He looked ok. OMG. OMG. I hope he's ok. What if he's achey and has no advil. If I don't speak to him tonight I'm calling Flip to make sure he's ok
WTF! You know I'm going crazy. The least you could do is CALL! ARGHHHH...
He's probably trying to punish me for my jealousy. I mean we aren't together. He's not my man. I shouldn't be jealous. That will just push him away anyway. Oh well. I imagine I will just have to take my punishment.
This is all very neurotic. When I speak to him he'll probably say he slept late then had a meeting, then went to lunch. Then he took a nap (yes he tends to nap at work o_O) Then he got a project and couldn't talk. Or something like that. He always says that punishment/lesson thought is ridiculous. I once told him I thought he never had sex with me because he was trying to teach me not to be slutty (not that I am slutty) and to keep my legs closed. He laughed and said that was not the case.
Who knows though.
All I do know is that it's driving me CA-RAZE-EEE