I'm being a bad mother. I cant stop crying and now poor mini has to see his mother cry. We are home today. Mini is sick. And he's bringing me tissue. This is backwards. I told him it was allergies. But he's not buying it. We were watching spongebob. The episode Gary leaves him for Patrick. You have no idea... I was bawling.
I'm upset because I stalled yesterday. I said I'd cancel the date because I couldn't deal with losing Crab all together. But my heart knows what I've gotta do eventually. And i'm gonna lose him.
I can't expect him to put himelf through that for me. And he won't. thats the crazy type of thing I do. Normal people dont subject themselves to hurt. I do.