I want to find out what a real relationship feels like, but i don't want to lose Crab in order to find that out.
Apparently having both is not an option. There was a time when it could have been that way. There was a time I would tell him I was going out on a date and it was nothing. Apparently that time has come to an end.
I told Crab about my upcoming date with Rome. I know some may question why I would do such a thing. For any one who doesn't know, Crab and I are honest. Well I can only truly vouch for myself, but we have an understanding of honesty. And so i told him. He understood, but said he couldn't just sit back while i date. understandable. But I thought we would still be friends... I figured he couldn't carry on the physical but we would keep everything else. He says we cant.
I have to admit that i was excited about the possibility of finding a 100% relationship. But I don't know if I'm ready to lose one of my best friends for it yet.
I cried out all of my energy. I can barely even type anything more...