This is the type of thing that scares me about ever truly letting my guard down. I'm so sad. I'd hate to see #1 what I would feel like if he ever ended this. And #2 what I'd feel like if I were to let myself go and feel all there is to feel for a person.
You're in my head again.......
ReplyDeleteSeeing as how the worst thing that could happen if you open up is that you get hurt, you pick up the pieces, and you try again, what's so bad about that?
ReplyDelete@laki I always think the same thing when reading your blog. Except of course the finger post!
ReplyDelete@chicago it is a crippling fear. I have no idea how to open up and it takes me years and years. I think it stems from childhood. I started to in the past couple of weeks but this incident (or non incident according to him) scared the crap out of me and I want to go back behind my wall. I will try hard not to though.