Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Just sitting here thinking about the hazy part of a relationship after a negative occurance. For me it's always been catching someone cheating. Well I've found this part of returning to normalcy where there is this strange love. When you've decided you are going to stay. I've always experienced this kind of fight or flight reaction of love for that person. I guess that is my internal fight response. I LOVE. You cheat on me, after the tears and anger, if I'm staying I feel this strange love. I can't equate it to anything other than being in a thick fog that I can only see a couple of feet in front of me. I feel this intense love but I feel alone and confused at the same time. It's odd and I can't say there is any other situation or instance I can equate it to. But I feel this need to love this person. For them to feel my love. Desperately. Have any of you ever had this?