Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Ahhhhh Haaa.....

See now...  I went back and read....

Crab did a whole bunch of scimming through

There is nothing he didn't know already.  Like I said only little extra details.  I think it's less of him being angry about me telling him lies (which is what he was saying) as it is him being hurt by the details of what he already knew about.  Details about dates and what I liked about a person.  What we did.  Where we went.

I said me and Homeboy sat at the reservation and looked at the city and kissed a little.  He took that as
we made out
when in actuality it was like peck, peck peeeeck.  Like one of those kisses.  Homeboy and I have never kissed kissed.  EVER.

There was one post that I started
I lied.  So What?
He was like I never knew you were that type of person to say that, yada yada yada

I read it.
I had gotten mad at him and wrote a post on the blog "So Done" and said I wasn't speaking to him.  then I spoke to him so I wrote another post that started
I lied.  So What? I was on the phone with Crab 2 hours after I wrote "So done"

I see what has happened here.  He has read shit and taken it waaaaaaaay out of context.

there was one post where I HAD lied to him and I wrote

I LIED, I FELT TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE.  blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah 

I owe Crab honesty and loyalty.  So I told him.

Ok so in May of 2010 I told him a lie.  Then confessed and we hashed it out.  Now in February of 2012 he reads I LIED and nothing more.  Doesn't even think about how I lied 2 years ago and confessed to him and we work it out ALMOST A WHOLE TWO YEARS AGO.  And we discussed it TWO YEARS AGO.

Oh my God.  I'm less devastated now. I had no idea what he could have seen.  I had kept telling him "I'm so confused.  You sound crazy are you on something?" when he was ranting at me.  Because the things he was saying didn't match up to what I knew to be the past few years.  But I can be wild so I wasn't sure.  When I looked...

I ain't even do nuthin!


  1. "I ain't even do nuthin" soooooo you have no reason to shed another tear. My boyfriend did the shame thing.....blaming me for stuff I didn't do. Then it hit me...."I ain't even do nuthin" why am I upset? crying? texting? calling? No sir, I will not be playing myself any longer. When you are in the get peace that is so refreshing!

  2. Guuuuuurl... I just tried my hardest to not diminish his feelings of hurt at whatever he read but still explain how it was in no way how he took it.

    It was a full moon last night. He couldn't help it. Cancers....

  3. Ew he's a Cancer. Lawd no...-says mini prayer-

  4. @Nony. Yup he's a Cancer! I was halfway prepared for something to happen because I knew it was a full moon on the 21st and that throws those Cancers into crazy!