Guess what I diiiiiiiiid?

Well.  this weekend... hmm...  Well Homeboy went back on his invitation.  So....  He was all "Well I don't think I'm really gonna stay.  I'm just gonna stay long enough to present an award and then I'm gonna leave."  so I was like ok.  Whatever.  Then Crab and I got into it over the phone last minute Friday Night right before I was about to fall asleep for the night at which point he yelled at me and told me he didn't want to speak to me anymore and that I was whack and I thought I was slick and that I'm just like every other bitch and so forth and so forth on.  It was because he said I said I was going to stop speaking to Homeboy and I didn't.  I did not say that but.... He believes it was implied.   I didn't sobbed this time.  I just went to sleep.  In the morning I took breakfast to my mom and told my mother.  She just smiled.  Little background about my mother.

She doesn't like men.  She's not gay, she just can't stand them.  (courtesy of my father).  But you know who she likes?  Crab.  Yes she does.  She really likes him.

So I was telling my mom about the argument and whining saying he wasn't gonna pick up the phone and I was calling and texting and showing my mom the texts and I said

"Mommy I luuuuuuuuuv him!"
And she says "Diana I know you  luuuuuuuuuv him.  And he  luuuuuuuuuvs you! You two are so ridiculous." and she laughed

I continued to call him and then finally he picked up.  And I said "Hey.  You want breakfast?"  he said "ok"  and I went over there and brought him breakfast and pretended like the entire fight never happened.  I didn't stay long because I had Mini and  I had a party to do (I do face painting for kids parties).  After the party I called and asked if he wanted to try a new burger spot.  I got us some burgers and we ate and watched The Godfather Trilogy.  Then I dropped him of at The Spot at like 12:30.  When I drop him off, he stays past closing (cause his friend works there) and then catches a ride with a friend.  I texted...

M: Home
C: Ok.  Muffin (his homie) isn't here. So I'm gonna take a cab home tonight.
M: Want me to wait up?

No response.  Around two he calls and I said

M: Hey .  Want me to come get you?
C: Yeah and then you can just stay over

So I went and we chilled watched tv. He mentioned how I always pretend that everything is fine like he never said he didn't want to speak to me.  I laughed cause, yup I do.  And if he didn't want to speak to me he wouldn't.  I wouldn't be able to come over and pretend would I?   So we did good things Saturday night/Sunday Morning.  I was knocked out cold.  I kissed him... Yeah I did. And are you ready......

Drum roll please!

I fell asleep with my head on his chest and slept this way most of the night!  Yup I did!  I did! Yeah I did! And I want to sleep like that again!
And again!
And again!
It felt SO nice! I'm smiling so hard right now while typing this.  That is BIG for me.  BIG!  Not only did I get close to him.  I stayed close to him AND fell asleep!  Do you know how I feel? I feel like I just...like...totally did one of the scariest things ever to do in my book of scary things to do.

• Spend the night SCARY.
• Cuddle with someone you actually love. SCARY.
• Sleep around someone.  SCARY.
• Sleep ON someone. SUPER SCARY

Aaaaaaaaw Yeah.....




I didn't wake up until 11:00 (which is unheard of for me.)  I stayed until like 3:00 then went and picked up my Mini from his dad's.  YUP he stayed at his dad's.  I had to be shiesty and drop him off then be like "NOPE I'm not coming to get him and I'm in New York so you can't bring him home!"  But hey. he hasn't kept him or even let him come over in.... I don't know how long.

Sunday I talked to homeboy and he was all...

I called you

And I was all

Yeah I know...

And that's it.  We didn't really talk.  just silence. And then I was all "Call me back later."

Good Enough

I'm at the mall with Mini right now.  Seeing couples is such a sight for me.  I've never had a man that I went out to public places with.  I always wonder if the man really wants to be with the girl.  How did she get him to come with her?  Is it annoying him for her to hold his hand.  She's not that pretty.  How'd she get him to do this?  And then I start to feel sad and wonder why I'm not good enough.

How nice!

Well...  Homeboy just asked me to come with him to a breakfast honoring his father who is an assemblyman.  How nice!  I told him I'd go.  I love those types of things. How do you DMV people say it? Cyssed?

The Gym

So we just got back from the gym.  I like it! Mini likes it too. I happen to know parents of two of the kids in the football program. They also have boxing.  But the dilemma came when the boxing coach called me over and asked if I was putting Mini in boxing which is at the same time as football.  So get this.  Homeboy said he didn't have to choose and would get Mini private boxing lessons so he wouldn't have to pick one.  That Homeboy.  He's so generous all the time.  He tried to pay for the gym membership but I wouldn't let him.

So Mini came home and threw on some work out gear and has been doing sit-ups and push ups and can't wait to go to the gym.  I'm gonna see if Homeboy will spend a few minutes with him tomorrow because I'm not sure this kid can even wait until Tuesday.  I'm sure he will.  He seemed so excited for Mini to sign up. And said he thinks he should come more than two days a week. 

Shhhhh.... listen... as we speak Mini is feverishly searching for his mp3 player.  Shh... shhhh....I was supposed to charge it for him but I forgot.  So I hid it.  I'm the wooooooorst! Lol shhhhh.....

Full Disclosure

I have to tell him where I'm going.

I don't feel like it.

But I'm gonna.

But I really don't feel like going through it.  Mainly because I'm already really tired.  And emotionality (yeah I just made that up to replace the word drama.  The structure of the word make no sense but... yup I don't care) Anyway... yeah ,emotionality makes me exhausted.

In other news... I smell De-Licious! Mmmmmm

That Foos-ball

So tomorrow Mini is going to the gym.  We are gonna try this football program at the gym Homeboy goes to. Homeboy sounds more excited than Mini!  Its so cute.  He wanted us to come yesterday but it was date night for Mini and I.  When I told him that Mini and I hadn't made it to date night he was like "Why didn't you guys come to the gym then?!"  I promised him we would come on Thursday. He knows the agony that I felt watching Mini do basketball so he says for me not to worry he'll be there with Mini if I don't want to watch.

I like that. :)

Gold Star for Homeboy

Just Babbling

Nothing to report on the man front.  Obviously Crab and I made up and things are okay right now.  I don't know what's going on in his noggin.  But as for mine things are good.  I love him as much as always. 

Homeboy.  Same old same old.  Apparently this weekend he didn't feel well.  I didn't call him because number one I was with Crab and number two because... I just didn't.  And I didn't call him Monday all day either.  Monday night he was a tad bit bent out of shape about me not calling him back when I said I would Friday but I didn't care much because he could have called me.  And if he doesn't feel well he should say that.  I've been trying to beat that into his head for as long as I've known him.  He thinks that I should know how he is and not get upset and I feel he should know how I am and be considerate and let me know he's gone into Homeboy Hibernation Mode   I don't think it's a lot to ask to not let more than 16 hrs pass before reaching out.  

Other than that, he wants me to put Mini in football camp at his gym.  We shall see.  Just trying to expose him to as many things as possible to see what sticks.  Ya know?

Homeboy and I were supposed to go to church Sunday but obviously neither one of us was concerned because we didn't go.  Our mothers happen to go to the same church so he was all "We should go to church and surprise them".  But we never did.  Maybe another Sunday.