I Confess!

Ok I just lied.  I'm not going to hug him.  Can't do all that.  But I'll do something like pull him in for a second kiss when I kiss him goodbye.

Chicks and Dirty Talk

Hey y'all. Sorry I've been away.  I've been playing freaky bisexual on twitter the past few days.  I made a new twitter account so Crab can watch me talk nasty with girls. Its been taking up quite a bit of time and I'm gaining popularity. So I must constantly thank followers and talk about eating pussy and things of that nature.  We are enjoying it.

I told him I'm scared I will just become a lesbian to which he said he'd just say "Fine! Fuck you bitch! JK"
AND WE LAUGHED...
I couldn't though...
But seriously.
What if I indulged my curiosity and realized I like women better? Than I got a whole new issue to deal with!
I mean... Actually, I totally have all intentions of doing it. I just don't want to like them better...
I do believe this nasty talk with these chicks is helping me with talking nasty to Crab. Im not going to sit here and tell y'all that I have been going all out talking and shit.  But I'm bringing it up in covo now.  For instance...

C:  when are you going to pick up Mini?
M: when I finish sucking you off.
C: good answer!

And now that I've started the nasty twitter I am seeming to use the word pussy a lot, which at one point I couldn't say at all and would just call it
The P Word.
So I'll be texting while I'm with him. And ill tell him "yeah I'm telling this chick I wanna eat her pussy from the back."  He finds this entertaining. It makes him laugh.  Probably because he knows #1 I have no idea what I'm talking about because I have never done anything like this and I'm making this shit all up. #2 that I would never say these things out of my mouth.

Oh oh...

Progress! Today at some point I was feeling tired and crampy and just not so good.  And I just wanted to be near him.  I needed comfort and when I thought about it, being with him was what I wanted to feel better.  So I called him and told him I wanted to see him.  When I met him at the train he was like "what happened at work?" And I said "nothing.  I just wasn't in a good mood and I just wanted to be with you."
Progress...  those were vulnerable feelings I wouldn't normaly reveal.

Then...
Then...
When I was done I stayed next to him and I didn't get up and I kept my hand on his leg and rubbed his leg a couple of times while we talked.  For me this was cuddling. I needed it. And it happened because I changed my behavior.  I didn't push him away so I could get up.  I kept my arm around his leg and touched his stomach and talked to him.  What we don't do is what we don't do because I won't do it. I'm gonna hug him tomorrow. And I'm gonna lay with him Sunday.

Sitting with him today really made me feel better.

BLAH BLAH BLAH CRAB CONVO

So I told him.

"I unfollowed you. I had to. I just couldn't deal!"

C: Why?
M: It's just best. I just can't take it.
C: Ok yeah then... you should.
M: Maybe one day I can follow you again. But now. Today. I had to unfollow you.
C: What did I say?
M: Nothing... I just... I can't.

This Morning - me on twitter

M: Good Morning @Crab!
C: Good Morning @Diana

Later - He calls

C: Did you follow me on twitter again?
M: Yeah I'm good now.
C: WTF. I don't understand what I did to make you unfollow me. Was it my friend?The one that said hi to me?
M: No. I have no idea what it was. But when I read your timeline, a feeling came over me and I had to unfollow you. This morning it was gone so I refollowed you. I think I will just continue to follow and unfollow as necessary. You'll just keep getting emails "@Diana is now following you"
C: *laughing* if you keep unfollowing me I'm gonna block you! Well I'm going to go to Starbuck's until lunch. I'll call you after lunch.
(He is the sole reason for the Occupy Wall Street Protest - People Getting paid to hang out at Starbucks! UGH!)

Unfollow

I gotta unfollow his ass like right now.  I can't... I just can't... I'm insanely jealous.

HEY NONY!

Say what?  I can't digest it?

I'm on the Do Not Call List

This Morning...

Via Text

M: You on a Train?
C: Waiting on the Jitney
C: I see you called by accident this morning

** check my phone history**

M: No I didn't. That was that bitch. It's Me.... Diana!
C: Oh I meant to send that to Girl(one of his daughter's friends)
M: See....
M: That's that bullshit
C: You are trying to press my buttons too early in the morning
M: I'm sorry Baby. Punish me later.
C: Don't call me today!
M: I said sorry!

CTFU. I'm not gonna call him. But it totally cracked me up when I read

"Don't call me today"

Supplemental

So I learned that semen has antidepressant qualities for women and it can be addictive. 

That explains everything.  That's why I want it so much.  It makes me happy. I smile after I get a dose.  I do anything to get it.  I totally stood up PIC the other day.  Just straight up never showed. Never called.  Just because I I didn't want to leave Crab.

Its full of vitamin c too! My doctors say I really need to take vitamin c and potasium (which it has too).

See.  I neeeeeeed it!